POtential BOMB

if i choose not to talk to you, it's simply because i dont feel like it. so, i dont owe u or anyone any explanation.

this kinda left me totally helpless each time a misunderstanding/miscomm occurs. for fear the bomb just goes off without any warning. that has been drilled into my mind and surfaces time and again.

feeling of stupidity for taking a wrong move, for appearing offensive, for agitating others and for being a friend whom, maybe, aint good enough.

feeling of helplessness when explanations turn out to be excuses in ur eyes and the lost in directions as to what i should do nxt.

well. i guess Ms.apology does the job. BUT obviously, a sincere one. who else could have done a better job thn her?

knowing the existence of the potential bomb could be a blessing. it shuts me up, keeps me silent, brought me tolerance and apologies that keeps the bomb form going off.

which could, have already took place if i hadnt know abt it in the first place.

shall do some reflections abt myself . thanks to MsApology which saved the bomb again.