think thinking thought.

ahhahah! i think my friends are sweet la. thinking abt the pre-excitment b4 the trip. how we try to piss each other off which always end up in laughters..

anyhow. poor feifei. she got CHICKEN POX!! she's so SO ugly now. and keeps on scratching her butt and coplains abt the pain/itch all over the body.... get well girl..

good news is, my bro passed the test in australia. and he's going to america nearing august. Bad news- he's gonna be away from home for 1.5years. WA, how to survivie without him at home ar... think its gonna be chaotic. esp for me. BOOHOO!!!!!!!!! can cry at night le la...........

and.. i quite afraid of my ah ma leh. she's really old le la. and need injection and blood supply at times.. worse thing, the doc finds NOTHING wrong with her. but her blood just disappear leh... what is this lo....

tsk tsk. imagine cheryl cleaning the fan aircon changing blubs catching bugs cleaning the windows.......................oH, so mighty.

You

countless days since i last came here.


ha. went sentosa last wkend. was fun to catch up wth those geeky mates. wonderful time at vivo.

Hmm. and I THOUGHT I SAW A SHOOTING STAR. but it flew by fast so i'm not sure what it was. i've nv seen one before anyway. i hope it was huh. cause, i made a wish. hehe


at the same time, i missed out the gathering with pl car and yang. how sad huh. but i'm no superwoman, so....
oooH i'm gonna meet up with my love ones this wkend, again. Ahahah, nv get sick of them actually.

and i'm planning to roan bugis this wk.. maybe i'll apply for half a day leave to go shop in the afternoon.. rather thn squeezing with the corwd during wkwd. MAYBE. jus maybe. cuz work seems to be piling up though i'm clearing them really fast too.

i'm haven been really having a life la, according to pl. ahahah. quite true leh. but i dun really have the energy leh.

if money falls from the sky, thn perhaps i'll have the energy. ahahah

here's something seriously random. ha, jus wanna you know i really appreciate you huh!

peili's a ridiculously mean girl who u cant help loving her rather instead of hating her for her jokes. she's one girl i would miss not meeting in my life. thought things gets nasty as times.. isnt that how u get to know who truely, are ur friends???????

yang has an ONE and ONLY laughter u can nv find elsewhere in the world. it just sounds so funny and sincere. simply love it.

car with the super nice heart where u cant bear to yell at her when u see her. even if u have been swearing behind her every single sec for the last 24hrs

jason. with the very simple yet complicated mind that leave u helpless. only wanna make him smile. from within.

tj, the not wasted but feels wasted guy is one friend u cannot miss in ur life. all ready to be there for u, i mean me. ahaha.

ida, she jus a slow girl. sometimes i think we're a reflection of each other. weel, she belng to the angmoh, me, to the chinese. ahhaah

ok, love u guys so SO MUCH.

POtential BOMB

if i choose not to talk to you, it's simply because i dont feel like it. so, i dont owe u or anyone any explanation.

this kinda left me totally helpless each time a misunderstanding/miscomm occurs. for fear the bomb just goes off without any warning. that has been drilled into my mind and surfaces time and again.

feeling of stupidity for taking a wrong move, for appearing offensive, for agitating others and for being a friend whom, maybe, aint good enough.

feeling of helplessness when explanations turn out to be excuses in ur eyes and the lost in directions as to what i should do nxt.

well. i guess Ms.apology does the job. BUT obviously, a sincere one. who else could have done a better job thn her?

knowing the existence of the potential bomb could be a blessing. it shuts me up, keeps me silent, brought me tolerance and apologies that keeps the bomb form going off.

which could, have already took place if i hadnt know abt it in the first place.

shall do some reflections abt myself . thanks to MsApology which saved the bomb again.