Miss-ing in action

Ahah. its been ages.

alright. my bro flew today. didnt feel gd. yeah, that's for the nxt 18mths.

anyway, sch starts nxt wk. and was with ida on mon. did some thinking together and realised-----> its not a easy thing.

ok. hopefully everthing goes well. since i've wish upon the star.

and. i'm BROKE to the bits. getting toshiba protege M800. SHIT man. dun need to shop eat play.

for good-ness sake, throw me some cash.

alternatively, stuff money under my pillow. fred not, i'll do justice to them.

think thinking thought.

ahhahah! i think my friends are sweet la. thinking abt the pre-excitment b4 the trip. how we try to piss each other off which always end up in laughters..

anyhow. poor feifei. she got CHICKEN POX!! she's so SO ugly now. and keeps on scratching her butt and coplains abt the pain/itch all over the body.... get well girl..

good news is, my bro passed the test in australia. and he's going to america nearing august. Bad news- he's gonna be away from home for 1.5years. WA, how to survivie without him at home ar... think its gonna be chaotic. esp for me. BOOHOO!!!!!!!!! can cry at night le la...........

and.. i quite afraid of my ah ma leh. she's really old le la. and need injection and blood supply at times.. worse thing, the doc finds NOTHING wrong with her. but her blood just disappear leh... what is this lo....

tsk tsk. imagine cheryl cleaning the fan aircon changing blubs catching bugs cleaning the windows.......................oH, so mighty.

You

countless days since i last came here.


ha. went sentosa last wkend. was fun to catch up wth those geeky mates. wonderful time at vivo.

Hmm. and I THOUGHT I SAW A SHOOTING STAR. but it flew by fast so i'm not sure what it was. i've nv seen one before anyway. i hope it was huh. cause, i made a wish. hehe


at the same time, i missed out the gathering with pl car and yang. how sad huh. but i'm no superwoman, so....
oooH i'm gonna meet up with my love ones this wkend, again. Ahahah, nv get sick of them actually.

and i'm planning to roan bugis this wk.. maybe i'll apply for half a day leave to go shop in the afternoon.. rather thn squeezing with the corwd during wkwd. MAYBE. jus maybe. cuz work seems to be piling up though i'm clearing them really fast too.

i'm haven been really having a life la, according to pl. ahahah. quite true leh. but i dun really have the energy leh.

if money falls from the sky, thn perhaps i'll have the energy. ahahah

here's something seriously random. ha, jus wanna you know i really appreciate you huh!

peili's a ridiculously mean girl who u cant help loving her rather instead of hating her for her jokes. she's one girl i would miss not meeting in my life. thought things gets nasty as times.. isnt that how u get to know who truely, are ur friends???????

yang has an ONE and ONLY laughter u can nv find elsewhere in the world. it just sounds so funny and sincere. simply love it.

car with the super nice heart where u cant bear to yell at her when u see her. even if u have been swearing behind her every single sec for the last 24hrs

jason. with the very simple yet complicated mind that leave u helpless. only wanna make him smile. from within.

tj, the not wasted but feels wasted guy is one friend u cannot miss in ur life. all ready to be there for u, i mean me. ahaha.

ida, she jus a slow girl. sometimes i think we're a reflection of each other. weel, she belng to the angmoh, me, to the chinese. ahhaah

ok, love u guys so SO MUCH.

POtential BOMB

if i choose not to talk to you, it's simply because i dont feel like it. so, i dont owe u or anyone any explanation.

this kinda left me totally helpless each time a misunderstanding/miscomm occurs. for fear the bomb just goes off without any warning. that has been drilled into my mind and surfaces time and again.

feeling of stupidity for taking a wrong move, for appearing offensive, for agitating others and for being a friend whom, maybe, aint good enough.

feeling of helplessness when explanations turn out to be excuses in ur eyes and the lost in directions as to what i should do nxt.

well. i guess Ms.apology does the job. BUT obviously, a sincere one. who else could have done a better job thn her?

knowing the existence of the potential bomb could be a blessing. it shuts me up, keeps me silent, brought me tolerance and apologies that keeps the bomb form going off.

which could, have already took place if i hadnt know abt it in the first place.

shall do some reflections abt myself . thanks to MsApology which saved the bomb again.

ok i go shit first.

back.

just came back from family dinner. went to get PDL in the morning. thn met pl and car and bough a super cute BURBerry skirt for feifei2. ahahah... dinner was nice la.. but i think my ah ma really becoming more blur. NOT A GOOD SIGN. hopes she gets better tmr morning

anyway. quite excited abt tmr.

think abt this.
how deep do u intend to love someone? for how long, how much are u willing to commit, how far can u resist temptations???????

well. things get WORSE when u have a affair, not once, but TWICE, each time after ur child is born. so wad is this and how are u gonna face it.

erm. guess i'm too young to really understand. but it somehow made me think twice abt marriage.

OH WELL. think for tv show.. BYE BYE!!

well.. feeling much better after all the hoohaa ytd.. AHAHHA

oh. and we've decided to develop those photos. wanted to go on wed.. but i dun think i can make it la. cuz i have to go through all of them, record those that i want, those that need big prints....

so i've decided to do it on fri.. but i dun think hte rest can..ahahh cuz they wanna start messy up their books this sat... of which i'm NOT free..

also so unlucky.. when car's free, i'm not.. vice versa. guess we were loggerheads past life.

ok going to play games liao.

qianlei. dun forget we're meeting this sat ar. i MIGHT gather those art stuffs myself.

ps* dun look down on me leh. i might jus find my way there jus like how i got back to the motel in HKG. hahahahhahah!!!

BOOHOO LOUSY WK

i feel lousy this wk.
ok so this was wad i did

morning went to HSA. where thers' like ALOT ppl compared to usual. and after waiting for like an hr... my blood was tested and REJECTED. for the 2nd time in a row.

thn i went to meet up with my relatives. we went for lunch at Chinatown food centre(opp HSA) but the food was Ok only la. thn to orchard to have my cousin's phone fixed. shopped and went to seletar camp to find my uncle for DINNER.

HIGHLIGHT for the daay- DINNER at Jerry's BBQ & GRILL. OMG. its was SPLENDID la. the ambience was more of a american 80's style.. so nice and romantic. the food was perfect and etc la... ate alot and it was only 176 for 6adults and 2kids. Totally worth it.

ok thn took the mrt back from ang moh kio.. too like thousands of yrs b4 i got back hm la.

but i felt lonely cuz i've been trying to ask my frenz out. but its always a "no" "not free" "no time" "some other day la" or, no reply frm them.. getting no reply is the most FRUSTRATING THING. even after pleading them to reply and still no reply, its REALLY DISAPPOINTING. seriously its been ample times since i ask them and got rejected. honestly, i'm DAMN FED UP. really.

wanted to go for movie with ql. been asking her out countless times. ever since she PS me to meet up with her classmates the other time. agreed to meet up the wk after the PS-ing incident.. and she was busy with dunno wad la...

asking her out again and again and again and all i got was-

""i this wkend not free la.. i'm outside now, tmr can? ""

and now comes tmr and it's,

""i dun really wanna watch today. i dun can watch heavy chinese movies ""

thn wad u wanna watch?

""paris hilton one? ""

wth, i've already told you JP GV dun have liao. and i wanna watch today.. there you went asking to watch nxt tues. -.-

AND... took her hrs to reply

""i really dun wanna watch forbidden kingdom.""

WOOHOO. GQL, u're seriously my best-est fren ever man. haven been to movie with u for sooooo long and yet u keep pushing. without meet-upS and Art class these days. i think its getting hard, girl.. u noe wad i mean right..

so, a BOOHOO this wk.

in any case, its another wk tmr. things gonna turn out well.